I can’t even look my mom in the eyes because she’ll see mine are swollen and then I’ll have to get into it with her, and I just don’t want that.
I was expecting it.
There has been way too much talk of deployment this weekend, and I’m currently in tears while Stephen sleeps. He leaves in June, and it’s only January and I already feel sick to my stomach. About 6-8 months, I won’t see him. Considering we have been with each other every night for four months (not counting like three nights, tops) this is going to be very, very hard for me. I mean catastrophic, because my feelings for him are genuine, and I feel like I’m home when I’m with him. So I need support. I need tips and ways so I can be okay when he leaves. And so I don’t waste the time with him I have now by being upset.